January
This is actually such a bad picture but it encompasses a really great moment: the first time I met my friend Tom! He's the bitch in the bandana. As all first meetings go it was kinda awkward (mostly because of me) but after maybe a month of hanging out (going to his place to play on the PS3, staying at ours to watch a movie, hanging out at the park, etc.) it was like I've known him my whole life. Weird! Maybe it's because part of me is still stuck in the hellscape that was being a teen in 2012-2015 (when you had to be an edgelord 24/7 to be friends with people) but we rib each other a lot, that's kind of our expression of friendship. But in all honesty, Tom's a really great dude and a good friend and my life would be worse without him. I've also never had another queer person as a friend, some of my friends from high school and uni may have been queer but even then everyone was scared of revealing too much, as was I. So when I'm with Tom, it feels like I'm with my people finally. He doesn't read this blog (and if he does, I will murder him!!) so I can be way too honest here and then one day I'll have the courage to tell him that he's an amazing friend and I won't make a stupid joke out of it.
February
Picture mostly unrelated. Just cat tax, I suppose. In February, we received a bunch of packages from a time long ago. I used to live in China with my family, we had moved back to our home country in around 2018 but a lot of our stuff was still there. All of my belongings were books, drawings, and so many childhood treasures. Literally all of my life pre-2018 was in those boxes so you cannot believe how happy I was to get them all back. It was like getting my memories back.
March
I was still in document limbo (still sort of am) but there was a lot of good that happened. I got some of my first comments on this blog, my sister turned 14, my dad came to visit us, and we enjoyed our biggest local event: the carnival. Sadly all the pics I took were really bad (night photography + Nokia slider phone = impressionism?). It wasn't as good as the last two years but there was still some very cool stuff.
April
I turned 26 this year! At some point after 21 or 22 birthdays became less exciting (which is impressive because I know people who stopped being excited as young as 16). I sort of forget my age but that usually ends with me accidentally lying to people that I'm older than I am. So yeah, 26 in 2025 and 27 in 2026, not sooner! More importantly this was the month where I didn't meet as such, but started emailing with another new and awesome friend, Alice. She reached out to me about pen-pal-ing and we've sent each other letters, goodies, and CDs a few times last year. Alice is awesome, just as a person and as a webmaster, go check her site out here. Another person who'd I'd be worse off without so thank you, Alice (who is allowed to read the blog unlike some people...). To many more years of emo, penpal letters, and everything else we want!
May
I went to my first ever Pride... in May? I'm not sure if it was concerns over the summer heat or some other issue but Agen was holding their pride in May and we went with a pretty big group: Me, my brother, Tom, my sister, her friend, and Tom's two friends. It wasn't an enormous event but there was still a lot of people there, not only for queer issues but for Palestine too which was good to see. I also started my new classes for my B1 French with a very nice new teacher, Madame Mahmoudi. Already miss that class.
June
We got a huge leak in our roof that bled through the entirety of the third floor into my room on the second floor less than a meter from my PC, what a disaster! However we also finally installed a real staircase that leads to the third floor with the help of our family friend Noel. Before that we had one of those spooky drop-down attic doors.
July
July was very wild. Usually I leave the month just to do some Artfighting but I sadly did very little of that this year. However, I did publish my first for real zine: the CDwORLD inprint issue 1. I had a bunch of people contribute to it, it really felt like a lotta fun (and a lotta work!). I also finished classes for the summer, we had some of July and all of August off. Bastille Day was nice, I picked the photo from that night because I do think July felt a lot like a firework, cool and breath-taking but also really not safe.
August
August was awesome. I officially got my bank account after a year long battle. I finally got my own room in our fixer-upper house and we had a great time at a local lake. I wish we traveled a little more in the south of France but there's always next year. It was my brother's birthday and I pre-ordered the new Expanse game for him which we are both really excited for. Private Music was released, at first I was not really into it because of all the AI but now that I've had time to listen to it more without the shitty visuals, it's an awesome album. I also partook in Blaugust for the first time.
September
September was so awesome, I spent August doing a commission for the first time in a very long while, it was for the cover of Xandra's new issue of the Good Internet Magazine. An awesome experience working with Xandra. I also finally bought 2 items that I've been on the hunt for ages: a digital camera and an Xbox 360. We put so many hours into the 360 since then and we'll probably do that even more now that I've figured out the exploit. So I've picked the photo above, a little sit-down to play some Skyrim with my brother and sister, on theme.
October
I really, really tried to make a month long list of teen horror movies circa 1996-2005 but failed big-time. I learned a valuable lesson about my blogging style, pre-writing is the only way I can go or I end up wasting hours and hours. I also did my first official work in France, we worked at a kiwi farm, picking kiwis. It was only some seasonal work but I may be back to do it next year too. I also finished my B1 classes, they were without certification but with a letter of recommendation from my teacher. We had such a lovely last day of class, I'll really miss my classmates. We also went on a daytrip to Bordeaux to visit the art museum and it was Halloween which is always awesome, duh.
November
In November I was waiting again. As much as I love France and all the civil servants such as social workers, there is some serious problems in the world of administrative procedures and bureaucracy. There is like no communication between departments so I wasted weeks running between the social workers' and unemployment offices trying to complete a bunch of random mandatory meetings in order to get the job search on track. In my personal life, I had a lot of lovely meals with family friends. It started to get chilly. Otherwise, we played so many old games from my childhood that I either started and never finished or only heard of, stuff like the early Halo games and Dead Space.
December
My sister and mum left to visit my dad in Georgia so it was mostly me and my brother. I managed to get some of the meetings I needed done but as usual, everything is so slow during the holidays. Anyway, that meant in our free time we were gaming!! I finished a bunch of games and started some more this month: Halo 2, Jade Empire, Mass Effect. I also completed my digital advent of this year that's up on my project's blog. My sister and mum returned on the 31st, I was cooking a lot for new year's, and made a pretty good roast if I do say so myself... and then the year ended! I ran out of time to finish a lot this year but it's not all so bad, having all of this diary-keeping on hand really helps me actually see things as is. I always feel like I didn't accomplish anything, that I've been useless and wasted away but that's not the entire story. So yeah, it's pretty good to sit back and look at the year objectively once in a while.
I also have some more wrap-ups for my other blogs and some goal lists. I'm excited to read other's people posts about their 2025 or what they have planned for 2026. If you'd like, drop me a link to your blog via the comments! By the way, in case anyone missed it I left my little moth at the top of this post.
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