Don't Make Me Go Out There {Week 02}

Hey. How's January so far? I'm feeling fine, seems the winter blues finally caught up with me because I've been a bit down and totally out of sorts. I think it's because I feel extra useless and caught in a web of my own making. I've been stressing out about finding a job I can do without fucking it up too bad but it's been... complicated. My friend Tom also recently told me that almost all employers now file all applications through AI, so lots of people get rejected at the first stage by a robot. I kind of already knew this but I had hoped it wasn't so widespread. Whatever, what's one more rejection when it comes?

Week 2!

Monday through Wednesday was all kind of a blur. Doing my own projects, playing games, and so on. I did get a message from my 'handler' at the unemployment office at last but they just scheduled another meeting with my social worker... which I'm pretty sure I already did. It feels like I'm running in circles.

On Thursday Monique came over to ours and we had galette and cider. I like galettes but I love ciders. Especially the cidre breton. So delicious. My sister had the fève (the small trinket baked into the galette) in her slice so she wore the crown. The cold front seems to be moving on. If the heating at our house wasn't so awful that'd be sad.

Season's eatings.

Went to the grocery store on Friday and got caught in the rain. It was nice and moody but I got my boots soaked and that was pretty annoying. 

In my restless dreams, I see that town...

On Saturday we finally started Left 4 Dead! Guys, I've been so excited. First we added some mods, nothing too crazy because we were trying to keep the actual game as vanilla as possible for Tom's first playthrough. We ended up with Tom playing Francis, Mo playing Louis, Marta playing Zoey, and me as Bill. I usually end up as Bill because we are both geriatric. We made it past Death Toll so far.

Perfectly spherical.

On Sunday I had... a bit of a mixed day. We went over to Tom's place because his mum was hosting a huge gathering of lots of people we didn't know. Most of them were very nice, we mostly hung out with Tom's childhood friend and a 9 year old, M. She kept bringing me random stuff and telling me about them: a Mario marker, a Stitch squish, her Switch. She didn't care that my French was bad and just kept talking at me. Kids and animals are the only good thing left in the world, man. Also I got the fève this time!

I was really overwhelmed meeting new people and trying really hard to speak French and it didn't help when people make remarks but it happens. I'm very bad at going with the flow and can't act unbothered to save my life, even though sometimes I really should. I'm sure my mood visibly changes and I make a real bitchy face when someone or something pisses me off. I'd suck at poker or if I had to be interrogated by Dr. Lightman from Lie To Me. So yeah, it was a fine time and the food and company was good but I think my social battery was damaged beyond repair.

The end!

This Week I'm Excited For...

Well, apparently the second 28 Years Later movie is coming out so I hope we can go see it in cinemas. I do have a feeling it will be better than the first entry but we'll have to see...

Song Of The Week... 

I've been floating in and out of ambient/downtempo/trip hop everything this week and I had a few Kodomo tracks laying about but never really took much time to listen through some albums. I really loved Still Life, it has no shortage of great tracks but my favourite is probably Concept 16.