Trying, Getting There {2025 Week #15}

Was a very productive person this Monday. I sent all that I needed to this morning at the post office and also picked up my new keyboard and mouse. Finally! I won't have to break my fingers reaching for the shift key ever again. Sort of caught up with my fashion blog but I'm already so late and it's not looking good. I once again come face to face with me making problems for myself. I didn't make any kind of plan and thought I'd just wing it and write on the spot. I used to do it a lot when I was a copywriter but I'm totally out of practice. Lesson learned, make actual concrete plans and outlines. Might already be too late for the A-Z challenge this year though.

Was at the dentist, they had to file down the filling they put in last year and it feels much better now but my gums are still so sensitive for no reason. Didn't feel amazing Tuesday and Wednesday, just did some stuff on the blog and my site. I did start watching Cobra Kai and it's freaking awesome! It's such a perfect imperfect show. The editing is ass, the modern covers of 80s songs suck, some acting is a bit strange, and the most important thing, the fighting, is terribly mediocre. But it has so much heart and drama, I am obsessed. Also I just love Ralph Macchio's cute little face, he somehow still looks like a baby (isn't he like 50 something?!).

Thursday forced me outside because I had my final meeting with Mission Locale, they were really good to me, I'll sure miss them. Now I'm stressed for my meeting with Syllabe (association for people who don't speak fluent French). I'm going to get tested and then if I'm lucky they'll stick me in a class somewhere.

So I went to Syllabe in the morning and the lady there was really nice. She talked with me first to assess my oral French (my worst probably). Then I did a listening exercise, then a reading comprehension one, and then I wrote a text myself. She was super encouraging and that's really bad because it gives me false confidence because I am not that good, I just know I'm not. She did say I already reached B1 and should keep going with it so I can take an exam later. I guess the studying paid off but I'm still totally insecure about my ability to speak or write or read French. It's probably not healthy to assume that anyone who praises me is lying but the brain does not compute, you know? I have an ego about all the wrong things. 

Right after I ran to meet with the social worker, it went fine. The best part about Thursday was that I got a letter (you know who you are!). Read it a lot and listened to the mix that came with it.

Saturday I spent time setting up my locally hosted MediaWiki wiki. It's to keep track of my creative projects like comics and games I'm making (at a snail's pace). We decided to go to Bordeaux on Monday to go to IKEA as a bit of a post-birthday day out. My brother and sister went to watch the Minecraft movie and they say it sucked. We had more fun playing season 2 of Storymode after.

Sunday I spent time drawing things, I have been art blocked for a while now. I'm just feeling really disoriented lately, not sure how to describe it, like I'm barely making way and losing track of a map that's supposed to be taking me somewhere or something. So dramatic! Hopefully there will be some sign posts ahead.

 I've been into 80s music recently, again. Probably because of Cobra Kai and reruns of the Schmoedown. Here is one that I have been liking a lot recently, Love Like Blood by Killing Joke: