Tuesday, 27 August 2024

Week 34

What the fuck was this week? I felt so totally lost all week, like I had no idea where I was or what I was doing. I hate times like that. So hard to get even a single uninterrupted thought going... man, I don't know what to do with that. The Monday was actually okay, I got quite a few things done in a relaxed manner.

 I studied, did a work out, took one friend to the train station because he's moving from his parents' and going to Sweden to finish his Bachelor's. I went to the store and bought everything to make some shoyo ramen, it turned out a-okay. I'm no Japanese chef but it was ramen-flavoured, okay?!


˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚ I would add more eggs if I could. I have no shame. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

I also tried to repair one of the discmen I have, I bought it broke but was okay with it because I thought I could fix it. I wiggled the streamer around but it did not fix the problem... I may have actually made it worse but I'm not sure. I'm gonna give it another try and then maybe look into ordering a new laser unit.

 ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚ Inside of the beast. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

I finally manned up to write an emotional message to the friend who had her wedding, hope she likes it. Most importantly, Y reached out to me and turns out she had the same problem... she couldn't find a way to contact me. We talked about our lives right now and I'm just happy she wants to stay in contact. I miss her a lot. She does a lot of stuff now, crocheting, analog photography, and some traditional art (she showed me some stuff she did for the anime/manga shop where she works). Got me thinking about finally getting those fuck-ass batteries for the Konica I picked up for 2 euros.


 ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚ Total steal! Now I can see why... ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

We are watching Silicon Valley again, because my mum had never seen it before. Mum got sick on Tuesday though. She was super itchy, feverish, and with a bad throat. She also felt like every muscle was injured. I was a little freaked out because it almost sounded exactly like the monkey pox that could be epidemic soon or something. She went to the doctor though and turns out she was fine. Work on my website is going not so bad but my pace is ridiculously slow. Thursday I went to clean a huge house for some cash as I can't be employed officially at the moment. Can't remember Friday much, it was mostly a blur. I wrote myself a task, 'find some clarity'. Couldn't be more off, I feel like I am in a constant blur. Grandma will be here soon, she's going on a huge journey to come see us. But it will be worth it. My dad is supposed to pass along a bunch of old hard drives to her with some really old pictures of us, but I have a feeling he's gonna not do it again. It's some really weird shit, I keep asking him to bring them and he keeps making weird shit up and not bringing them. It really pisses me off.

Haven't been playing the PSP or DS much, just did a little more Storm Lover Kai. Otherwise we have been playing Battlefront with Mo, it's been fun . But he rages at games a lot and that seriously makes it unbearable. But usually he's okay when we play together.

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  What the fuck does this mean?!? ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

Simona got sick but she doesn't seem too bad so we just got her some meds from the vet and if she doesn't get better we are gonna take her for a visit. I can't function when something is wrong with the cats. Like, nothing else matters but getting them well.

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚ Simona loves to hide under blankets. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Yoshi likes camouflaging among black objects. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

What a mess of a week. I'm out here hoping for something good to happen again. I want to look at a horoscope, kind of like taking a placebo. I need something, man. I was wondering this actually... I often like to look at story prompts for fun but so many of them suck ass now because they are obvious A.I. generations. I wonder if they do that with horoscope predictions too. That would suck major balls. A bunch of outlets are promising that Aries will be getting their stability and functionality back next week. Gee, I fucking hope I do.

◀・week 35┆✦ʚ❤︎ɞ✦ ┆week 33・▶

Sunday, 18 August 2024

Week 33

So, a new week has started! At last, the summer days are cooling down. Good, because it was starting to be unbearable. My mum is at her office a lot so I stay home and manage stuff here, lunch and cleaning. 

I did receive a mail from the rights defense lawyer but she said that she did not receive anything from the prefecture so we're still waiting. My mum likes to renovate furniture in her free time and she's made us a great new cupboard this week:

I made some progress with my comic, I'm starting to transcribe the script for the first chapter. I know that seems like literally nothing (yeah, it kind of is) but I have re-written this chapter like 50 times over at this point and I'm reaching a satisfaction with it at last. I really dread what the following chapters writing process is going to look like...

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚ Before the renovation. Sad, decrepit, poor guy. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

 


˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚ ... and he's all done! ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

I have also been caught into reading other people's blogs (duh, that's what they're for!) but especially older blogs. I found one by accident called the princess portal written by a lady called Skye who was a lolita and a modern day princess. Honestly, though I can't relate super strongly as I don't find anything related to monarchy (even when its super removed) too appealing, I still really enjoy reading her entries. Maybe it's because she cared so much about the details and because its a look into the past I don't remember well because I was young. I don't know but I'm going through her whole blog and wondering what happened to her and what she's doing now. She's still a princess, right?

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Skye's style on her daily style page. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

Chromewaves.net is totally different. It's not even deleted, just not active. Frank, who ran it, leaves a poignant goodbye message and is kind of my philosophy about writing any of my blogs. Don't make it for anyone else. I mean, I'm not making anything off of this. Maybe I'll meet some friends. But this is not a job. I'm not gonna act like it is and get burnt out for nothing. It doesn't mean I'm not gonna try to make this readable, fun, or you know, good. Just that when I fail I won't treat it like a catastrophe. I also like Frank's writing style, his strange phrases and metaphors. He's probably still active on Twitter but I don't go to that hellhole so I'll let it be. 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Farewell. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

We also re-watched the first two Lord of the Rings movies, director's cut which my brother and mum haven't seen before. They are all about four hours long so it's impossible to finish in one sitting. We're barely half way through Return of the King.

Thursday, Rose picked us up for a quick trip to a brocante behind the big Leclerc. It was pretty sparse and I didn't find anything except a cute bag, I put my markers in it. 


 
 
 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Nice and sunny with plentiful stalls. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Dino heaven ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

 


˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Some close-ups. Those are tiny ships. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

This Saturday a childhood best friend is having her wedding. I had mixed feelings about going. Ofcourse I wanted to be there for her but I also hate traveling and events like weddings. Still, I would have gone for sure if not for my stupid document situation. I had to pick out some pictures of us all together from when we were kids so another friend who is attending could show them to reminisce about the past. Double stress because this friend wants me to come real bad and keeps hinting that I should go even without ID. I am not doing that! I don't want trouble. Man, it's crazy to think this person you knew for years as a kid is now all grown up and getting married. Three cheers.

 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Me and the bride-to-be at age 8 or something. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Us as nuns, I guess? ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Middle school. Halloween. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚



˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Picnic, near a construction site. Thanks dad. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Genius. Brilliant. True comediennes. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚




˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  High school times. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚





˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Her dad made us go on a lot of camping trips. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚


˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Last we met in person was in Belgium. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

I wish I could be there for her on such an important day. We have known each other since the start so it feels necessary. But its just not possible. There will be more moments that I won't miss so I'll just have to be content with that.  

Anyway, when we finally finished Return of the King, we went out to the car show. It's a bit of a walk, maybe 20 or 30 minutes and if not for the Return of the Stupid Heat it would have been nothing. We made it anyway and my brother was pleasantly surprised and impressed by the collection and display that the local car enthusiasts possessed. It was rows and rows of new, old, and ANCIENT cars. 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Sports car after sports car! ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Look at the back of that thing! ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Baby Willis. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Now this is an old boy. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚


 

 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Car assortment. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚ Me with my future ride, Honda, my beloved. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚


˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Looks like Mike Chilton's Mutt from Motorcity. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  U.S.A.! U.S.A.! U.S.A.! ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  And finally: the Barbie Tractor. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

I was using my sisters camera but it's battery suddenly died halfway through our walk. Bummer. The rest of the photos I took with my smartphone. Lame. I'm seriously considering going back to my flip phone. I have such a cute Samsung I used to take around with me. Maybe it's time for a comeback.

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚  Me taking a cringe selfie on my Samsung Nori F in 2018. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

Friday was pretty uneventful, I even forgot to write down what I was doing in my planner. I cooked burgers for everyone and we watched the last Diary of A Wimpy Kid film. They're great and the last one was set in the summer, so even better. 

On Saturday I did get some things done but as usual it's literally borderline nothing. I guess I need to take wins wherever I get them, whatever they look like. It's my friend's wedding, and another friend was supposed to call me after the ceremony so that I could have a quick chat and wish her well but it seems they got caught up in the frenzy. It's ok, I think I'll leave her a message and she can call me back when she has time. 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚ Market day, fresh fruit breakfast. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

I got so nostalgic though about my best friend from high school, Y. We parted ways much better than with the childhood friend. We even saw each other once during uni, she came over to see me in Budapest. It was great. I miss her a lot, so I left her a message after a huge effort to get back into my instagram account. God, I hate social media... Anyway, let's hope she reaches out. It's been years. Like, since 2018...

 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚ Me and Y circa 2017. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚



˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚ Our graduation exhibition. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ˚

A bit of a hectic week. A lot not done (the usual), some things done (unusual). Apologies that this entry is a bit overloaded with pictures but this is a photo blog, I guess. See you again next Sunday.

◀・week 34┆✦ʚ❤︎ɞ✦ ┆week 32・▶