Week 43

Yet another late entry. The week started fine, my mum and sister went to Nice to stay at my mum's friend's place. They had a pretty good time. Me and Mo stayed home all week and basically just watched movies, did some grocery shopping, and went to Bordeaux for the day on official business. It was pouring all week. Drying laundry has been a nightmare because we don't have a dryer or anything so it's all weather-based around here.

Mum and my sister took multiple trains and it took all day. And it was expensive too. It makes me super sad that somehow trains are now more expensive to use then planes. Electric trains could be much better long-distance transport than planes though.  

 ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Through Agen, then Marseille, then Nice. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

On Monday I finally got some deliveries I was expecting for a while but happened to be lost somewhere in transit. I got a pair of leg warmers, a keychain, and a bag chain with some stars. Super cute. 

 ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Pimping my bag. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

Early on Tuesday we went to Bordeaux by train, my brother needed to pick something up from the immigration center. Love the train ride there. I either read a lot on the e-reader or listen to music and imagine random stuff about my comics or games or something. 

The visit to the center went super fast and we met up at a mall nearby when Mo was done. I looked around, checked out H&M and stuff. Nothing good. We also visited a Søstrene Grene shop there too. It really gives me Mori Kei vibes with the atmosphere of coziness. I have been kind of into Mori Kei and Gal stuff recently, really not the same thing at all but I don't like being boxed into one style. We bought a can of Chai Latte for my mum and marshmallows for my brother to make hot cocoa later that night.

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ A little cute hideout. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

On the way to the center of town we saw a movie being filmed. It was something historical. We saw some extra enter a port-a-potty in full 18th century dress which was funny. 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ After you, m'lord. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

We went to our favourite Chinese restaurant, Wok Way and enjoyed some lamian. It was as good as always. A big second-hand book store was also nearby and had a lot more manga then they did before. I wanted to get something but decided to spend a bit less money and buy something another time. 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Beef lamian, delicious. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

On our walk we also had a look around in general. I didn't really take much pics but Bordeaux is a very nice city. It has cool modern parts in the center and further north and also lots of beautiful sand-coloured old architecture. It's a pretty busy place for me but I like it a lot for a one-day trip.

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Courthouse of the egg. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Churches and arcs all over the place. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

There is also a cute outdoor book market near Sainte-Catherine. It's totally over-priced but I almost bought some random volumes of Angel Sanctuary. 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ The autumnal feeling I'm chasing. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

A bit before our train and while we were still in the center, we got a Japanese cheesecake. It was delicious. We got a milk tea and Vita lemon drink for nostalgia's sake from the Chinese store too. It was super nice. 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Something like what me and Mo had after school. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

We were so exhausted when we got back, we didn't even leave that late. We took the 3:20 PM train and were already home at 4:30 PM. The cats wee happy to see us, I always feel bad about leaving them alone all day. We watched The Green Mile and had hot cocoa. I can't believe I hadn't seen The Green Mile till now, I'm a real fake film fanatic. Sam Rockwell is especially unhinged in it.

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ This is going to kill me. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ 

On Wednesday my period started so I was out of commission. Sadly, the pain on my first day is getting better but is still super annoying. I watched some movies and then me and Mo started the Foundation but it was so boring. So we watched a video about torturing scenes in the Call of Duty games. COD is a childhood staple for me, everyone at school played some or all of the COD games. But it is wild how much of it is just lies, D.O.D. propaganda, or some form of American imperialism justification. Because gun cool, gun go brap brap.

On Thursday I was still lazing about, recovering. Worked on my site, messaged some friends, and played some Space Engineers with Mo and his (our?) friend from his college. On Friday I spent most of the time cleaning the house up, we really let it go since mum left. I tidy pretty well though, I did do some janitorial work in my life before. I've totally lost hope for reaching even 10 Inktober prompts but that's okay. Spoiled ourselves a little and made steaks for dinner. Mo likes his like super cooked, burnt as hell, rubber texture. I like mine rare or medium rare. I like the blood!

Saturday was the same, went to the recyclerie, saw my teacher from the Red Cross, Nichole. They teach for free there, it's nice. Mum and Marta also needed me to pay for their SIMs so I did that. Looked around at some manga. Had a bit of a fashion moment that I posted about on my fashion blog.

On Sunday, mum and Marta got back. They were super tired because they were supposed to arrive the day before but their train was delayed and they couldn't make the connection. Luckily we have friends in Agen and they stayed the night at their place. We watched Mystic Pizza but it was kind of lame.

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Ninja behavior. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ 

And that's the week. It was pretty turbulent and next week will be a little crazy too. Halloween. Then November starts and I really want to take scripting my visual novel seriously. No jokes, now.We'll see, maybe some jokes.

◀・week 44┆✦ʚ❤︎ɞ✦ ┆week 42・▶ 

Week 42

Wow, this is way late. But if you were here from the start you know how this blog is. Catastrophic. Anyway, the week actually started well. I went to Banque de France in Agen again and the guy there was really nice and I actually felt fine because I could answer all his questions and so on. I guess some progress is being made but I am still so, so bad. It stresses me out. French people speak so fast.

Before my appointment I mostly wandered and popped into some stores. I really, really want some flats with a little strap. It's my dream. But no store has them... It looks like I'm going to have to order them online. I didn't get a lot of pictures, mostly some shots of the way to the station. So funny considering I wanted to do daytripping now. Take a whole day to see another town. I don't have enough energy for that yet so it seems it's not happening right now. 

  ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Going down the main street. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

 

   ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Arriving at the station. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

 

   ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Walking to my platform. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

 

   ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Train! ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ 

I know I said earlier that Dark Side of the 90s/2000s was like my guilty pleasure show right now but it just leaves a bitter taste right now. It really lets some shitty people talk, like the assholes running the Bachelor or Howard Stern lackeys. Fuck them. So I probably won't be keeping up with these losers who really overstayed their welcome. The only really interesting episode was about those poor kids from the Jon & Kate Plus 8 show. Still, I think the dad (Jon) gets a little too much slack. He was a part of the stupid show too.

Inktober is going pretty poorly in terms of keeping up with the prompts. My PC is truly dying. If it doesn't stay propped up anymore it basically just turns off. I'm using my brother's Parblo tablet but I totally suck at it. Still, the tool is not the problem. Adaption is possible. In like, 2008, people were drawing amazing things with barely anything. 

On Tuesday I also finally sent Yuka pictures of my 'workspace' that I promised a long while ago. I work in a corner of our dining/living room, it's okay. Literally no privacy from the nosy family but I have a socket, desk, and internet so I will not be complaining. Finally tided the place up though.

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ This is where - not magic - but something happens. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ My top-of-the-line collection. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ My CD case needs serious organizing. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

On Wednesday I popped into my favourite second-hand spot and got some things to complete the Halloween costumes me and my brother will be wearing. We also went to the supermarket with my brother and sister to check out a new cafe that opened up. There was a bunch of Halloween stuff there too. 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ It-girls of the season. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ I'm the Joker, baby!! ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Unionize or else... ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Fancy snacks. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

We went to an abandoned factory in town. It's going to be fixed up and used for stuff like office space, maybe classrooms for special courses or something. My mum is working on that project. We were there to measure a room that will be turned into a showroom in the coming future. Anyway, a cop shows up and he's like, don't walk out of here because we're practicing shooting in another spot in the factory. Pigs, man. Anyway lucky that we didn't get show because we had no idea they were in the same place at the same time.  

That's most of the week. I'm getting ready to write the script for my visual novel when November starts. Ever since the downward spiral Nanowrimo chose to go down started I've decided to just do it on my own. Just Wrimo. No Nano. Maybe I should make my own badge and theme and stuff. 

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ I am this petty also. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

That's pretty much it, me and Mo need to go to Bordeaux next week. There's a lot to do but I have a migraine like every day. But you know what. I catch-up. I do that more these days than ever before. Again, a very minute victory that any other functional adult can achieve easily but I take what I can get.

◀・week 43┆✦ʚ❤︎ɞ✦ ┆week 41・▶

Week 41

This is the week we "harass" the bank into opening my account. If there's one thing about French banks that you should know is that they are totally lawless. It makes sense, fence-sitter liberal and mediocre time-waster that is Macron was a banker once so it follows that they essentially have free reign underneath him. 

No matter what government organization tries to help me, my social worker, my youth unemployment office officer, the Bank of France regulatory body, and even a rights defense lawyer, the bank is dragging this to no end. Mind you, all those guys help out for free so some parts of the system are fully functional, but that stops at the banks.

I can't work without a bank account. I can't get my welfare without a bank account. I can't do shit. I couldn't even go to a professional training course because in France they pay you to go to those. I just want this absurdity to end. I'm already scared shit-less of going to work again. Yeah, I'm scared that I'm too lazy and can't follow a routine. I'm scared that I can't talk to people and everyone will hate me. But not doing anything isn't working for me either.

  ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ I know it looks like ass but it tasted good. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

I've gone back to old favourites. I had a bit of a break from Songs:Ohia and stuff but my love for anything Jason Molina has ever done came back with full force. It's something I want to put into writing, or art, how every album, every song, damn near every lyric makes me feel. But I'm totally not ready to see it through. 

Caught up with a lot of manga Monday through Wednesday. I put Sakamoto Days off for a very long time. I was worried it had a lot of ecchi for some reason. I think it's the bad taste Chainsaw Man left, which fucking sucked big time. I'm a hater. Anyway, Sakamoto Days in a masterpiece, Mob Psycho John Wick? It has it all, awesome action, a found family, and angst-y backstories without it feeling like a soap opera.

˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Typical TikToker take ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

Caught up with Medalist, what an amazing story also. Sadly, it seems that all the style will not translate to the anime that's coming out next year. I tried Honey Lemon Soda but honestly I am not convinced, it's just too generic so far. The vampire BL comedy, Babanbabanban Vampire, was a good surprise but there's only four chapters translated so far sadly.

On Thursday, went to the bank again. So, here's the story. I don't have a permanent ID in France at the moment but due to my 'situation' I have a permit for ten years. While I wait for the ID card, I have a temporary document that I can use for work, study, etc. Anyway, the bank doesn't accept it and keeps telling me to wait and wait and wait. I already went to the regulatory body of French banks, Banque de France, and got a special letter but the local bank here didn't react. So, I've been trying to open an account since February. I can't work or get welfare or nothing without an account.

So, good news? Fuck no. Your forgot who's blog you're reading? They hand me a refusal letter due to...get this... unacceptable ID document AND no proof of income. Here's the funny thing. I can't get any form of fucking income... without a bank account! Whatever, with the refusal letter I can go back to Banque de France and cry about it and they're supposed to do something.

I checked in with an old classmate that lives in the U.S., he lives in Tampa. Anyway, he survived alright and his family is good too. Hopefully they can make it back home soon. Internet Archive is down, which is the fucking worst. And I have been slacking on Inktober but I will take a day to do some catch-up. 

   ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ I miss you, come back! ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

Went to the hardware store with my mum and we picked up a green paint for a cabinet we're gonna fix up. I really need it bad because I have no space for anything. My space is a total mess. I started watching trash TV again... this time it's Vice's Dark Side of the 2000s (narrated by Sugar Gay himself).

   ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚ Package delivered. ˚ʚ ☘︎ ɞ ˚

Getting Halloween costumes ready with my brother. It's a surprise! We put new ink in the printer but it works like ass. We got it for 5 euro so... It's been a hell of a week, man. What a clusterfuck.

◀・week 42┆✦ʚ❤︎ɞ✦ ┆week 40・▶