Slow week! I was mostly home and didn't take any pictures. Terrible. I did get a pseudo-job offer which is pretty awesome. It's nothing full-time or permanent but it's not too shabby if they end up keeping me. On Monday, I was still awake from starting a movie before midnight and finishing it after. It was I Come With The Rain from 2009, a movie I have very mixed feelings about. The important thing is it spurred me to get back to more analytical writing and I started working on the media page on my personal site. Hopefully I'll end up with some reviews that aren't just the five sentences I came to rely on recently. Tom also invited me and Mo to hang out on Saturday so we'll probably walk around town together or something.
Madeleines from the local bakery.
Tuesday was more of the same, web site, art, projects, blah blah blah. I made a list of the available CUTiE mags on my fashion blog. Also got a lovely comment from Krish there. Soon enough I was daydreaming about having my own magazine...
Wednesday my period started so I was out of commission. I fell over and finally watched Ramen Girl. A weird movie but it's honestly pretty charming. Good job to the cast. Brittany Murphy had such a future ahead of her, it's so damn depressing that her life was cut so short. As usual, the culprits are the disgusting media and speculators.
Thursday was a real new low for me. I started to feel really down, no real reason, but I just could not get anything done, no inspiration was coming at all. I felt really swamped and I hate when it happens because I don't even know where to start with getting out of a place like that. Basically, I also feel like a total fraud. How am I nearly 26 and still so mediocre at what I do? I'm a hack. I usually hang out with the cats and it helps.
Friday was a little better. I started my media page, it's looking the way I want it to which is nice. Not always the case. In the evening I watched Tokyo.Sora finally. It's free on YouTube! It was great. Slow. Just how I like them. It's been a good week for movies at least.
On Saturday we went to chill with Tom. We met up at our house then just walked around some. We ended up at his house and hung out at his garage spot where he has a couch, video games, a Playstation, and a book about Trixie Mattel that I was browsing. I'm not very well-versed in drag race lore but I like Juno Birch and he knew her. We just talked a lot, it was fun. About zombie shows. Other stuff.
We headed up to his house, his mum was doing an art project of some sort, she's a creative lady. He offered to give us a tarot reading and though I'm not a believer I'm always up for trying things out. Unless it's doing some curses or a summoning because even if I don't believe in it, I seriously do not see the point of taking your chances. So, my reading was interesting... I asked about my future in work and art but Tom said his cards are gaslighters so they told me about the present instead. I'm filled with anxiety, analysis paralysis, and being pushed around by external factors. Allegedly. Whenever I come out of my period of struggle, which is apparently soon, I should have sympathy for those that are now in the place that I was. Roger that!
Sunday was alright, my period finally ended. It's usually like 3 or 4 days but the first two are always super painful. I did more work on my site, I'm satisfied. Man, it must have been so cool to have been a web designer in the years 1997-2005. The golden age. Now's fine too because I'm not doing it for work so...
Since I have so few photos this week, I took some picks of the really random little things I kept in a metal box for years. It's one of the things that arrived from China. I still have to go though a lot but this one was so nostalgic because it's basically stuff from 2010-2017. Which is no vintage, I know, but it's years and years ago and in my meager lifespan, that feels like millenniums.
The box!
What a mess...
So sweet! A bookmark from school.
My cat notebook for fave songs.
A Shaak Ti doll I made when I was 12?
IDs of my dad and me...2013?!
Even older ID and some cards.
Lots of pins.
Ancient notebook.
A friend sent us some Xbox games.
Lol.
It's not the early 2010s without rubber bracelets.
A bunch of random stuff.
Some figurines. And the cutest cat perfume vial.
Worn and loved bracelets.
Whatever all of this is...
Flags, toys, and bits of stuff.
Metal doodads.
More trinkets.
Super cute sticky notes and pins.
I used to work at a cafe/bar.
That's my middle school locker lock!
More metal. Lots of buttons.
Two music boxes! Have a listen.
So that's just one box that was inside a bigger box. I have way more stuff I need fo through and I might make some space in my posts about it. Creatively, I have been super stunted this week... but I'm gonna try to fight through it in the next week. After all, a creative block might go away now or in a month... I can't wait that long.
This week please enjoy This Guy's Ready For Bed by Pop Unknown. This is to celebrate me going to bed earlier than usual this week but also because it's a great song with a moody melody. I can't stop listening to emo.
Bonjour les lecteurs ! Eh, quoi ? Le blog est en français maintenant ? Non,
mes lecteurs, tous les articles principaux seront en anglais, mais je
veux améliorer mon français écrit. Comme tu peux le voir, mon français
est terrible (l'oral est pire). Je vais écrire un petit article chaque
semaine en français à partir d'aujourd'hui. L'objectif n'est pas moins de
100 mots (et la suppression de Google Translate de mes écrits et de mes
devoirs). J'ai décidé que cette étape est nécessaire parce que quand j'écris
un e-mail... je passe 20 ou 30 minutes juste pour quelques phrases. Pas plus ! Je vais pratiquer. Souhaites-moi bonne chance.
Monday was crazy. We got a call that we had a bunch of packages coming in later in the day. These are the most important packages ever, because it's all our stuff from when we lived in China. It's my entire life pre-2018. We opened everything box by box, just soaking in the nostalgia and happiness of having something from the past back. I wasn't sure if we would ever see these things again so I'm so glad it all worked out. I got so many of my notebooks and sketchbooks and more back. It's just worlds upon worlds of things I made up and stories I drew or wrote. I understand that the stuff is less than worthless, but it's special to me. Even got some old diaries, embarrassing... I will post pictures and more of the stuff when I kind of am less overwhelmed.
Tuesday, we were home. It's been very cold this week. Too cold. I finally caught up to the Orb: On the Movements of the Earth episodes I missed. It's amazing, what a sleeper. I wasn't even super into it before the episodes with Oczy and Badeni, when it was finally cemented for me. Woah, what a great anime. I highly recommend it. Also watched the first episode of Sakamoto Days, kind of disappointing. I don't care about the action, because the best part of the manga for me were the gags and the found family drama. The first episode already seems to be pushing the bad gags and skimming over the better stuff. But it's only been one episode so I'm gonna calm down a bit. It's too early to tell but I really wanted this to have Mob Psycho vibes and I just don't think it will be on the same level, not because of the animation even. Also watched the first episode of the Medalist, I forgot what a dick Tsukasa was at first. It has too much of the yelling/intense emotional outbursts that I hate about anime but a lot of the characters are literally kids so it makes sense.
Wednesday was pretty awesome because our family friend drove us to a nearby town so that we could finally go see the elusive recyclerie that is usually closed. It was super worth it. Huge, cheap as hell, and full of any type of anything. Hear ye, hear ye, gaze upon my findings beneath. And some pictures of the actual place.
It's pretty moldy but there were some finds.
A wall... maybe?
Chairs for everyone.
The friend then took us to the fancy Chinese buffet we went to last time with my Grandma. I felt real bad that Mo couldn't come with us, he loves Chinese and buffets. I actually did not have a soup which I regret a bit but I had so many small dishes and sushi I just couldn't handle a soup.
Yal Wok.
My dessert plate.
I loooove bayberries. And I miss them.
Arm warmers from Kiabi.
I think I want to make the shoulders open.
Green-grey skirt.
Such a cute bag!
Simona wants to know also.
My CD finds.
I actually haven't seen Marie Antoinette yet.
Totally out of order but cheap.
On Thursday I went to help Mo at his job. We had to paint an entire shipping container and it was a lot of work. In damn cold weather too. The area is pretty cool though, the containers are rented out as small offices for start-ups and small firms. I also met Fabrice who also works there and he's a real nice guy. Mo got us chicken kebab for lunch with some cokes. I have been drinking way too much soda these days, it will be time to cut it out soon. I had to leave a bit early because something dumb came up with the documents but I sorted it out when I came back.
The cool lounge.
Bus that is a cafe.
Tea time!
On Friday I was home again, took some time to add many of my fave fashion magazines to a list on the Internet Archive. You can check it out here if you like that kind of stuff. As usual we played the Division with Mo and his friend (I should probably use his nickname already since we play games together often, so anyway, he's Rost). We then played Minecraft all together with my sister. I've been thinking I should invite Tom to hang out sometime next week.
On Saturday I got a offer for some few gigs at events to assist 3D printing classes for kids. I agreed but I'm worried that my French sucks too hard. Still, even if nothing is working out with my bank I have to do something... work even these few jobs and stuff. I need to call the guy tomorrow. I also started fixing up my fashion blog because I want to actually post there.
And it's finally Sunday. I spent most of it finishing up my fashion blog, and voila! It's all done. Honestly, I love how it looks. It's very kitschy and fun. And works fine, so good enough for me. Check it out here if you're curious.
Graphic design is my passion.
We finally finished Silent Hill 2 today (mostly played by my brother because I'm a scaredy cat). I also watched the 17th episode of Orb. Stuff is happening. I'm happy being in the flow right now, helping when I'm needed, saying yes to things that come my way. Not taking the losses too hard. Here's the song of the week: Look Like a Mess by Sunday's Best. What an underrated band and album.
